The Satanist feels compelled to resist, mock, and dismantle arbitrary authority. This is encoded into our minds, deeply wired; it constantly reminds us that we were not meant to bow down before anyone or anything. In recent years, regardless of your own personal feelings towards the organization, The Satanic Temple has made great strides in challenging Christian favoritism and dominance in the United States. The outside enemy, the injustices which occur all around us, are plain to see. Then it becomes a matter of gathering the strength and fortitude to fight those injustices. However, when the enemy dwells within, things become far more complicated.
I associate the word ‘God’ with tyranny, abuse, and hindrance of progress, just as I associate the word ‘Satan’ with freedom and knowledge. In the myth of old, God condemned the first two humans to eternal suffering and damnation because they made the choice to grow, to become aware, imbued with knowledge of good and evil. ‘God’ has oppressed and suppressed me every day for years, because it is my mental illness. If you have or know someone who has Major Depressive Disorder, you know of the thick chains it wraps around the mind, suffocating creativity, love and ambition. Depression has been my God for as long as I can remember. Just like the storybook character, my God punishes me for my desire to transcend and embrace who I am. It is a destructive weed in my life, and in the lives of so many others. Unfortunately, it too is wired into the brain, constantly at war with the strong, rational Satan – the voice of reason.
The stigma towards mental illness is quite sad and harmful. I do not let my depression define me, as this would be submitting to a fascist slave master who doesn’t want me to see my own worth. If we didn’t stand up to those nagging, destructive forces in our minds, we’d be on the same level as the frightened Christian. No, The Satanist is a fighter. The Satanist cannot be contained in the dark, airless box that the powers that be want us to crawl inside and exist forever. We are far greater than that with far greater potential. Of course, those of us struggling with mental illness will hurt deeply. The sickness can obscure our vision and hold us back, through no fault of our own. We cannot kill “God”, but we can damn sure stand up to it and say “You are not my master”.
The Satanist is a firm believer in the power of science. It is a wonderful, exciting subject to understand not only the universe around us, but the universe within ourselves. It is only right to take advantage of what science offers to combat mental illness. I feel no shame in taking a host of psychiatric medications every morning. Why should I? My God would prefer me to live in the dark, to rely solely on its false perception of who I am. If you too are struggling with mental illness, and haven’t yet reached out for help, I urge you to do so immediately. It is a courageous act, like Lucifer standing up to the tyrannical authority of God. It’s an immensely satisfying feeling to realize you don’t have to struggle alone. Psychiatric drugs can allow us to see beyond the warped view imposed upon us by “God”. You are the embodiment of Satan – you are a strong, free spirit who cannot give in. Embrace science and use it as a weapon to rebel and fight.
Depression can force one to obsess over how they are perceived; we don’t want to let others down, we don’t want to show any signs that we need help. Depression is a solitary disease, and it will try and force us to isolate. As a Satanist, you may be a lone wolf carving your own path, but that doesn’t mean you have to remain silent about that which constricts you. I strongly believe in the power of community. Society can become cancerous, but community is a pure and healthy thing. When Satanists stand together, communicate and share in their strengths, it helps shape the world around us into a better place. It also helps improve the vast, unique worlds inside us all. Do not fear the prospect of allies. We are not sheep, but individuals who can embrace what makes us different and stand alongside our allies, giving and receiving support. Do not let your “God” convince you that you aren’t loved. Do not let your “God” make you believe you’re worthless with nothing to contribute. The Satanist is a valuable, wise, and quite courageous individual – our struggles only fortify us, and remind us of our strength. Do not be ashamed of an illness that you didn’t choose. Instead, be proud that you are a fighter and survivor. The scars you bear are totems to your warrior spirit. What could be more Satanic?
Satanism is a path of symbolism and metaphor. The outside battles we face against arbitrary, oppressive authority are very important. However, the battles within are just as important. Identify what is wrong in this world, and put up your best fight. At the same time, know that “God” takes more forms than the external (oppression of women’s and LGBT rights, church and state, Christian dominance, anti-intellectualism, anti-science, using guilt as a weapon, etc). These things are clearly seen and despised by the Satanist. Know that “God” can also be a voice within for those who struggle with depression and other mental illness, a voice that wants to keep us in line for its destructive agenda. Unfortunately, it will always be there to some degree as mental illness cannot be cured, but you can prove it wrong. Let the burning-bright, logical, grounded voice of Satan empower you. Savor the forbidden fruit. Let it nourish you. You are not a slave to your sickness, and you are not a slave to anything.
The fight will rage on for all time. We are damaged, vulnerable creatures who are incredibly resilient – that is why we can relate to and embrace the “fallen angel”. We are not weak. Reach out and utilize everything available for a better quality of life. The enemy within is a potent one, and quite a manipulative one, but it is not who you are. The serpent is always there to speak purely, with no pretense nor agenda – it is your true face, your true spirit. Its influence cannot be understated.
If you have no one to talk to, please send me an email and I will gladly listen. Consider me an ally in your rebellion.
Hail thyself. Hail Satan.